Pictures??!?

                         These are the scarfs and gloves and booties that the boys got from Grandma Charlotte!

                                                        Strike a pose!  On a walk to the lake.

                              Signature photo of the Dumm couple.

March. Enough said.

Please go on a journey with me.  I am working on some emotions, and I need to get them out.  March 8, 2005.  Stephen Dumm enters the world.  Crazy as ever, but he will be 7 next Thursday.  March 18, 2008.  Michael comes into this world.  We literally prayed, and knew he would be born that day.  March 15, 2010. We deliver Hope.  Hope returns to her Father in Heaven.  March 3, 2011.  We deliver Matthew.  Matthew returns to his Father in Heaven.  March 2012?  Focus on the good that has come out of March.  Are we going to have anymore kids?  Wait for next March.  Because if we do, there is no messing with the month of March.  Tomorrow, will mark 1 year from when we lost our precious little Matthew.  I was talking to Chris earlier, and I am a little bummed at where I am at in my life.  What has changed this past year?  My weight is pretty much still the same.  The sadness is still there, but in a healthier way.  The crappy part is, my mind keeps wandering to what I have lost in the Month of March.  We have a little joke in our family, that Chris' bad month is August.  My bad month is March.  We will see how we do this March.  I am already struggling.  I feel like I am in a funk.  A sad funk.  I work through it, but it is still there.  I pretty much want to sleep away the funk.  But, alas, Phineas and Ferb only last so long, and Mulan can only be played once a day.  Those are the boys' favorite movies.  I have a lot of goals this month.  I hope I can keep them.  I get to see my family in a couple of weeks!  So excited for that!  We have been preparing, and that might be why I am in a funk.  I get into these modes where I seriously long for my family to be closer.  This is why everyone needs to buy Web cam's so that we can Skype!  Theme for this month, is Count my blessings.  If you have a chance to read I know that My redeemer lives, please do.  It helped me a lot during the difficult times.

His hands. His mighty Hands

Today, I want to share with you the most awesome experience.  I could have killed a person today.  Unintentionally.  I know with out a doubt that our Heavenly Father is watching over us.  All of us, everyday.  And today, he was seriously watching over me.  Let me back track a second...

Yesterday, being Monday, I was out hammering in some Shepherd hooks into my front yard.  It wasn't a real hammer, and it wasn't a sledge hammer, and it wasn't a mallet.  It was all of those things combined.  That's what I was using.  This morning, I couldn't remember where I put the tool, but I thought nothing of it.  I did my usual Tuesday routine.  Take Stephen to the carpool spot, come home, leave again to take Michael to preschool.  This consists of me getting on the freeway, traveling 70mph.  Dropping Michael off at preschool, going to our old home in Roseville to finish cleaning it out.  As I got out of my truck, I walked behind it, and I noticed, that right there.. RIGHT THERE!!... Was the tool that I was using yesterday!!  I have this relationship with Heavenly Father, that i feel, is a unique one.  I can imagine, that he is driving with me, with one hand on the back bumper, slowly shaking his head..  Saying.."Jenilyn, you don't need this in your life right now!"  I don't know if you grasp the idea of what I am getting at.  But, I could have killed someone!  It could have bounced off the back of my bumper and into someones windshield.  I could be in Jail for involuntary manslaughter.. Yeah.  I am the criminal type..  Holy Cow! It scared me so bad, and also made me so extremely grateful.  How has Heavenly Father held your hand lately?