March. Enough said.

Please go on a journey with me.  I am working on some emotions, and I need to get them out.  March 8, 2005.  Stephen Dumm enters the world.  Crazy as ever, but he will be 7 next Thursday.  March 18, 2008.  Michael comes into this world.  We literally prayed, and knew he would be born that day.  March 15, 2010. We deliver Hope.  Hope returns to her Father in Heaven.  March 3, 2011.  We deliver Matthew.  Matthew returns to his Father in Heaven.  March 2012?  Focus on the good that has come out of March.  Are we going to have anymore kids?  Wait for next March.  Because if we do, there is no messing with the month of March.  Tomorrow, will mark 1 year from when we lost our precious little Matthew.  I was talking to Chris earlier, and I am a little bummed at where I am at in my life.  What has changed this past year?  My weight is pretty much still the same.  The sadness is still there, but in a healthier way.  The crappy part is, my mind keeps wandering to what I have lost in the Month of March.  We have a little joke in our family, that Chris' bad month is August.  My bad month is March.  We will see how we do this March.  I am already struggling.  I feel like I am in a funk.  A sad funk.  I work through it, but it is still there.  I pretty much want to sleep away the funk.  But, alas, Phineas and Ferb only last so long, and Mulan can only be played once a day.  Those are the boys' favorite movies.  I have a lot of goals this month.  I hope I can keep them.  I get to see my family in a couple of weeks!  So excited for that!  We have been preparing, and that might be why I am in a funk.  I get into these modes where I seriously long for my family to be closer.  This is why everyone needs to buy Web cam's so that we can Skype!  Theme for this month, is Count my blessings.  If you have a chance to read I know that My redeemer lives, please do.  It helped me a lot during the difficult times.